
If only I could….

Ambient Music for Mosh Pits
Soooo…I’ve been traveling lots recently. Much of July was spent in Kuwait which was interesting. Most relentless heat I’ve ever experienced. I did meet and befriend some very kind people which is always the big plus of any of my travels. But there is nothing better than coming home.
I’m finishing the mixing/mastering of a piece I started in June. Tentative title is “Melancholic”. I’m not sure if I’m going to release it as a single or compile some more pieces for an album. I’ll see as more music comes forth.
Going to leave this here as a reminder for myself and, perhaps, as a learning tool for anyone who wants its.
I was able to transfer a very old demo piece, circa 1996, from a decaying cassette tape to MP3. The title of this is “Emillo”, named after a character in a movie. Its a heavier instrumental indicative of my Rock and Roll days of youth. The quality is rough. This was recorded on an old Fostex 4 track recorder. The “master tape” is long gone as is the recorder. Items used to record this include an Ibanez Destroyer guitar, Digitech RP multi-effects board, an Alesis drum machine….and the rest escapes my memory.
Steve Albini, renowned producer and musician, passed away suddenly at the age of 61. He’s probably most known for producing Nirvana’s “In Utero” but he did so much more. He engineered every Neurosis album since 1999 which are, in my opinion, some of the best albums ever. He also produced Page/Plant’s “Walking into Clarksdale”. He was an intelligent man with principles rooted in the DIY/Punk Rock ethos. I admire that. He shall be missed.
Random thought #1: I’ve spent over a month in Green Bay. Not a bad place to be. But when I asked someone what a cheese curd was, she looked at me like I had just grown a 3rd eye. I’ve yet to try one.
Random thought #2: Its been two years since we got rid of satellite TV and, thus, any access to CNN, MSNBC, Fox, or any other “mainstream” (HA!) news outlets. Having spent several weeks in a hotel, I watched a little of the news….enough to turn it off in haste and in gratitude that I don’t subject myself to that crap any longer.
I’m presently reading “The Memory of Old Jack” by Wendall Berry. It has captured me in the same manner as “Grapes of Wrath” by John Steinbeck did equally because of the settings of days long past in America and the descriptive nature of the writing of deep emotions. I strongly recommend this book.
Thomas Merton (1915-1968), the Trappist monk and author, has been a major influence in my life via his writings and the influence he has had on others that I admire (e.g. The Dalai Lama, Richard Rohr). For anyone curious, I strongly recommend you explore his writings.
He has referred to “The True Self” in his writing which is, as I understand, our self that is beyond ego, beyond fear, beyond even what we consider our identity. It is, as he describes it, reachable by way of a contemplative practice. His description is comparable to those of Buddhist, Hindu, and Sufi figures throughout history which I find fascinating and encouraging. To use Richard Rohr’s term, it rings of “perennial truth”.
In the past few years, I’ve made it a daily routine to awaken 1 hour before I have to get ready to depart the home so as to allow a time of prayer, meditation, reading, etc. It has made a subtle but noticeable difference in my demeanor and inner peace. It has been akin to dipping my proverbial toe into the contemplative waters.
I share this as much to note to myself that, in spite of my noisy mind, fears, frustrations, and shortcomings, I have made some minor progress in this life to understand what serenity is. I know enough to know it is elusive and isn’t something to grab or obtain so much as it is something to be uncovered and rediscovered. It is, I believe (as Merton put it), to discover our true self.
May peace be with you,
Alan